all you need is love.

i wrote this a year ago and every time i read it i feel inspired. i love it. no pun intended. i rewrote some of it. but most of it remains untouched...

Love. a loaded word, a word compact, filled, brimming with emotion, overflowing with something unfathomable. the one thing we all are after. we crave it. we die for it. we spend a lifetime looking for it. we dream about it. sing about it. give it freely. nurture it. we melt in it. fall for it. get caught up in it...it is so intertwined, wrapped up in who and what we are. it's ingrained in us. it confounds all notion of worldly thinking. we can do naught but revel in it. we risk everything for it. we win it & lose it. we are reckless with it & hopeless without it. It fills us with life. it makes us do things we would never dream of. it sweeps us off our feet. it dares us to be bold. it changes us. transforms us. floods our minds with hopes & dreams. it comforts us. it fulfills us. we laugh about it. jump for it. run to it. we are utterly and hopelessly consumed by it...it is a steady constant in a world of so much dark. it is pure & beautiful. it can be blind. but true love never fails. never dies. never wanes...nor fades. it is steadfast. brightly shining for all to see. it is what we get up for in the morning. it is what we hold on to, cling to. what we believe will last forever... "and the greatest of these is love."

i love love.

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mr. golden sun.

summer is coming....my absolute favorite season. i can smell it! yesterday it rained, but softly with a warmth to it and the wind wasn't entirely unfriendly either. today the sun can't seem to stay away...it keeps poking it's glistening head out of the clouds as if to say "don't worry i'm here!" if i had my way it would be summer all year round, with a hint of fall and a pinch of spring thrown in every few months, mix it up for a few days and go back to the searing heat. i wonder if i were to move somewhere raging hot and live there all year round i would enjoy it, or beg to move back to a world with four seasons. it sounds ideal. don't you think? complete and utter bliss...

it smells of the sea.

it smells of lazing out in the sunshine.

it smells of warm nights full of stars.

it smells of sand in my toes.

it smells of true blue skies.

it smells of adventure & roadtrips.

it smells of promise.

it smells of first loves.

it smells of things to come.

those are only a few of the many wonderful things summer brings. only 55 days until summer!

have you ever felt confused, perplexed, bewildered... as if an army of emotions are swimming around inside your head, spurning headache after splitting headache, like your head is jumbled up into a million different knots and there is no way out, no possible solution that may result in untangling all those ugly throbbing malevolent decisions that have been heaved your way. i feel as though my head is going to explode from all these thoughts whirling around in my head. all these decisions looming before me. they are a daunting task. a huge undertaking. i feel as though i am far too small and insignificant to take on what the world throws at me. sometimes i just want a break from my own mind. to switch brains with someone else, anyone else, so long as i can escape my own head for awhile, my own thoughts and ideas and the roller-coaster they have me on, for awhile. i think far too much. i just want to do. but what do i do, where do i go from here? what's on the horizon for me? what's around the bend? i wish i knew. i wish i could figure it all out. Life i mean. i'm too much of a thinker and dreamer to go beyond and jump into reality, to take a chance and live...to make mistakes and be bold. so many decisions to make it's overwhelming...do i go back to school? where do i go to school? what do i take in school? what do i want to do? what do i like to do? what are my passions? what are my interests? what do i want to do for the rest of my life? not easy questions when you don't know the answers. help.